La vie en rose

“don’t feel sorry about yourself when the one you care for turned out to be unworthy of your affection. just keep in mind that maybe God put a few bad people in your life, so when the right one came along you’ll appreciate that person and you’d be thankful. there is a big, beautiful world outside what you have confined yourself to accept your fate and leave your baggage behind always remember that we get hurt for a reason and we make mistakes so we can learn. lucky are those who find love but better are the ones who know how to let go of love when it is not meant for them anymore. . .”

Last night, sweetie and I had our usual talk before going to sleep. She did all the talking and I just listened. She mentioned about her family and her child, how she longed for both of them. I gave her advice but she refuses. I cant blame her if she feels that way. A lot of things happened that i cant discuss it here because its not my story to tell. I just wish somehow that the pain she’s feeling can be healed in time.

We also talked about her past relationship that surprisingly only few are remembered. Why? Because she instantly forget those person whom just hurt her and cherished the one who give nothing but love and happiness. I said to her that you want to forget thats why your saying you cant remember them but deep inside you remember them all. I ask her if her ex’s ask forgiveness and ask her back? She said, Yes. I ask her again, Why didn’t she gave them second chance if she really love the person. You know what she answered to me? “kasi nagawa na nila at kaya pa nila ulitin yun.”. I was shocked to her answer! Even if she love that person she’ll reject it. This is one of many differences we have that’s why i don’t push the subject further. We respect each others points of view or opinion.

After cutting the subject we just lay there in silence… then she spoke “bakit ngaun lang kita nakilala? Sana noon pa para wala na kong past para ikaw lang.. ” i don’t remember the exact words but the meaning is something like that. I’m kinda stunned to what i heard it make me pause before responding. I ask her why is she saying that? I explained to her that your past makes you who you are now. That He gave you that person for a reason. You learned something from them. Each person that came to your life had left something to you. I gave my ex as an example, I told her that God permit shine and I to meet and also let her hurt me. He let that happen so that I can learn something and realize my faults. Although the process are too painful but in the end I gained something that makes me a better person. Hmmm sounds familiar… I’m really thankful I met all my ex’s hahaha Anyway, I told her that I love her after all she’d been through and that makes her smile.

I really don’t know what will happened to us in the future, if we’re going to make or not. But I’m planning for both of us, i mean for the three of us or four of us. Hahaha Sweetie, i cant promise that i wont hurt you and make you cry but I’ll try my best not to and always remember please always remember that i love you and that I’ll never leave you. Now I’m missing you sweetie i wish your still my officemate who sits just beside the wall…

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